friday.

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(just some happy photos i snapped yesterday of my wild, wild one and myself yesterday.)

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oh hey, i'm back!

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     unfortunately, i had to take a 2 week trip back to ohio because my father passed away pretty unexpectedly. he was struggling with some health issues but no one really expected it to end this soon or this quickly. i probably don't really need to explain that it's been a really crappy,

emotionally exhausting, crazy/intense/powerful couple of weeks. 

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     after all the work that my middle sister (we also have a 12 year old sister) and i along with other family members poured into planning and sorting and preparing things to celebrate and organize my dad's life, i am kind of feeling a little bit in a denial. although it has in many ways, i don't think that my dad's death has really truly hit me yet. and honestly, i'm not sure that it ever completely will. 

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     i don't think i'll ever stop waiting for a million voicemails or a text. or stop expecting to see him at christmas or call on my birthday. it may not ever really start making sense. how someone can be here one day and just completely gone the next. it's a lot to sort through.

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    the little boys and i got back to colorado yesterday and for now, it's back to real life.

because life just keeps on going on regardless.

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     happy friday everyone.
thanks to all of you who have reached out to me with condolences. :)

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